auld lang syne

i want to hear the ice sing
as it cracks up into a million tiny pieces
before being consumed by warming waters
that flow
and rush
and rage
that ease into the madness
that lives in the cracks of my soul

you and me

i place in you
the best of me
a shield against
the dark

that
threatens
to
consume

knowing you’ll be there
to guide me back

into the light

there is no greater comfort
than the safety of your arms

no promise greater
than your hand
upon
my shoulder

no love greater

than

you
and
me

and

me
and
you

me, i am

I am fluid
I have merged with the universe
I inhabit the night sky
Seeking truth
Understanding
Guidance
I drift in moonbeams
I exist in the light of the sun
Twirling
I inhibit the wind
Destruction follows
My wake
Fullness is insatiable
I consume the worlds
Existence
Shrinks
I disengage
From the
Universe

i
am
alone

touched by an angel

i visit death
in my mind

a hundred moments in a day

i wonder

not what death
is like
but for those
left
behind

i have grieved before
i understand
the
vocabulary
we gave death
and
dying

the desolation of missing a person

i don’t know how to die
i don’t know how to be the one
who causes such misery
by
their absence

i wonder
if they feel our pain
the dead
do they think
on
us
at
all

or maybe there’s just nothingness
a deep and eternal slumber
dreaming
of wonder

perhaps
a longing
to return
earthbound

and
fragile

to touch — once again — our beloved